Life to the Fullest

I got a sign this morning… I little round sticker with the number “508” on it.  It was stuck in the fold of my laptop where the screen meets the base.  Where it came from and what it was doing there, I have no idea.  I am going to take this as a sign that I should be doing the FC508 race again.  This at least puts to bed the question as to whether or not I should do that race.

After waking up this morning and dealing with some system problems at work, I decided that today is going to be a good day no matter what.  I have nothing good planned, I am not expecting anything good to happen and in fact, I expect to get grief over the system problems that I fixed during a time I should have been asleep.  I can’t let all the negative energy around me get me down or get depressed about things that are beyond my control.  Today I am going to try to face the day with a positive attitude and see what comes out of it.

I need to be more like my son.  He exudes and radiates a positive vibes almost all of the time.  He rarely gets down and if he does, is quick to snap out of it.  I was not like this as a boy, or for that matter my entire life.  I am going to turn over a new leaf today and try to follow his example from now on.  Please someone kick me in the ass, face or balls if I go back to moping around and complaining.  I am sick of my own negativity.  It’s gotten me nowhere in life.  Looking back, the times I have been most successful is when I was positive I could accomplish the things I set out to do.  Letting negativity get its grips on you is a sure way to failure.

Almost everyone has the power to change the situation they are in.  The only ones in life who should be pitied are those who are truly powerless to change their state of being.  Certainly, if you live in a free society, without strife, warfare, disease, hunger and other major perils, you should be able to change and make your own fate.  If you want to do something great, to be remembered, or build your own monuments, then the one person you need to rely on is yourself. 

You will have other people in your life that will help you along.  Without you taking that first step though, those people will never materialize.  Coaches, mentors, teachers, parents and yes even your own children can teach you, coach you and offer you lessons about life.  It’s up to you though to make the most of their contributions to your life and move forward, onward and upward.  You need to reach out to someone else and convince them you are worthwhile enough for their time.

I am pissed at myself.  Pissed at pissing so much time away when I could have made so much more of myself.  Don’t get me wrong… It’s not as if I am living in squalor, begging for scraps of food and standing on a street corner hoping for some work and a paycheck each morning.  It’s just that I know I have coasted after certain successes.  I’ve let myself coast far too long and let myself become depressed when things did not continue to come my way.  If you want to be great at life, to have a great life and live a life that will be remembered with satisfaction, you have to live your life to the fullest.