So I woke up this morning with the good intention of running 3 miles to the pool, swimming 2000 – 30000 yards and then running 3 miles home.  I had even woke up earlier in the night to eat something so I would be fueled for the approximately 2 hours of working out.  However, when my alarm clock rang, I had a fit of weakness and self-pity and said to myself, “What is the point”?

I figured with only 2 weeks before I am to have surgery to repair a hernia, followed by a mandatory 4 week recovery period that there was really no reason for me to be working out.  Any fitness I would gain from today’s workout would be lost in the 4 weeks following the surgery.  This led to a philosophical debate in my mind.  I thought to myself, if I really enjoyed training shouldn’t I just get up and do it for the pure joy of it and never mind the fitness boost it would give me?  At 4:30am though, the potential good feelings that would come from working out was negated by the thought of leaving my warm bed for the cold darkness that was just outside my door and the thought that I would lose the cumulative fitness gain over the next 1.5 months.

Of course, after the sun rose and my clock struck 7am, I became aggravated for not sucking it up and getting outside.  This is almost always the case when I blow off workouts.  I guess deep down I do find the joy of putting a good workout in, just for the sake of it.  Otherwise, I would not be filled with self-loathing for blowing it off.  Yes, it is going to be doubly hard to maintain focus and continue working out for the next 14 days, but I do not really have a good reason to stop right now.  I guess I should take it a bit easier than normal, but I should still get out.  I just have to view this two week period and the 4 week recovery and just another process in my overall training, fitness and good health and make the most of it.

As for today… It is not too late for an evening run and I did get to the pool yesterday.  So I will try to give myself a break, although I don’t think I will succeed.